i didnt expect things to turn out this way,
she may dislike me alot, hate me for all she can,
but i just want her to know that she shouldnt be so sensitive.

i know maybe the elmo and cookie monster stuff may be a lil overboard.
but tk told me, he's very close to alot of girls too.
and yinzhi doesnt do anything.
and its like i call him cookiemonster and he calls me elmo, she gets so jealous that she starts cutting herself ?
starts crying so much ?
its not like, i start going out with him one-to-one ?

i dont know what have i done to make her so agitated.
she stayed up till 8am to think why she disliked me so much.
just bcos i emailed tk, and asked him to study hard ?
my heart really aches, im trying very hard not to sms, not to msn, contact him in any form.

i dont know how much more can i bear.
all the memories came flowing in while i had my bath a few minutes ago.

the times i was so happy whenever he said ********************
the times i was happy and touched till i cried when he gave me my birthday present.
the times he calmed me down when i was so agitated
the times i was down, he was always there for me, encouraging me, tolerating my temper
the times i squeezed my brain juice and shopped for his bday gift
the dreams i had with him
the times i was so excited when i was going to meet him

these things aint gonna happen, anymore.
let my heart bleed